So havent bothered to read over what i wrote those many months ago, but i am going to shed light on the current situation, and how i got here. I got through the easter holidays..just..to be faced with my art exam. It was successful -shockshock horrorhorror- but i was then left with the worry of the approaching exams. (I have been finally told my expected grade for art, and itspretty good - yay :D) any who, yes i was faced with the stress of the mounting revision. Unfortunately, i had my worst spell of umm..depression? to date. I went several days of feeling immensely low. Not wanting to get out of bed. Not wanting to face the day. Crying at every oppurtunity - tearful before skwl - and after. After ass mention several of these days had gone by my dad approached me and said he though i should see a doctor. we arranged an emergency appt and i went..with force. I explained brielfy how i had felt down, I was also asked a series of questions. Then diagnosed as being depressed. I was then referred to a special um im not sure this is the right word but - unit? where i spoke to a psychiatrist specialising in child and teen's development. I spoke for two whole hours entirely about life up till then. And that didnt even cover it all. She then suggested it may do me well if i were seen by a psycologist. She then referred me to a young woman that was traning - and had been for several years. I have been going to weekly sessions now for about a month. Its hard. Alot harder than i anticipated! We discuss my feeling, thoughts and past experiences. We also go over triggers and how to avoid them. I also have to keep a food diary - not only of the food consumed but also of my feelings and thoughts before, during and after consumption. Its tiring and often leaves me feeling worse. I have over the past month had multiple very bad binges. Im not sure whether its because of the therapy or not - although my instinct tells me it is. So i am now attending weekly sessions and trying to sort out my past present and future problems. Its hard, but im hopeful. Although at the same time i feel very depressed. So any advice from suffering binge eaters/anorexics/victims of emotional abuse etc -or better recovered victims, would be inmmensely motivating. Many thanks, and i shall update shortly. xxx