So i'm back in school tomorrow..i have an exam this week but its the least of my worries, i'm just glad that i will have a distraction for the next four days from food. its the first thing that enters my mind in the morning and the last thing i think of before i go to sleep. i find i 'binge' not only when im bored..but if im not that hungry either, which is annoying. i intend this week to hit the nail on the head and just knuckle down with work and maybe seek help with this problem..school may be good for taking my mind of it..but its only covering up the problem underneath which desperately needs fixing...im just a bit worried about seeking help, when i went to the doctors several months ago i felt belittled and patronised..the doctor himself was of no particular use and its become a bit daunting..the thought of going that is.
i also intend on making some progress with my mums alcohol addiction. i realised these past two weeks that because of school and my mums job, i dont realise how difficult i find living with her can be..i guess i block it out, but the last two weeks have been incredibly challenging. i feel drained and emotional from spending so much time in such surroundings with these problems. listening to myself i sound like a hypacondriac..but im hoping this blog will vent some of my frustration..who nos. ohwel chow for now..nd n e one has advice, id very much like to hear it..ill cont' this another time when my family arent lurking around xxx